What My Heart Needs To Say.

Jiwangness ahead. :)
This is so not me but nda salah kn jdi jiwang skali skala. hehe.

Why? Why can't I forget you?
Why must it be you who stole my heart?
I know that I'm only lying to myself. I keep telling everyone that I'm over you and I hate you
but the fact is, my hearts still yearns for you.
There was a time before when your smile made me calm, your jokes made me joyful, your friendly attitude made me comfortable to be friends with you.
And your confusing attitude mad me more eager to know you.
I love seeing you in your KRS uniform. It made you look more gorgeous. ;)
And I know this may sound a lil weird and silly but I actually love looking at your hands and eyebrows. lol.
I enjoyed your sudden laughs which come out for no reason at all.
Everytime I hear the song Tinggalkan Saja by Kotak, your face pops up in my mind and without realising, there would already be tears rolling downs my cheeks.
Why can't I get over you? Why do I keep falling for you eventhough I know that it will only make me more hurt?
Am I stupid for still loving you? Is it wrong to love you?
Whats the big deal? Difference in our race and religion?
But it's not my fault, not yours either.This feeling is such a sudden one, it came without my willingness.
I know I may not be the kinda girl you like.
The pretty and fair one.
I ain't got much to offer but my heart and soul.
And I guess that's not enough for you to notice me.
I'm trying so hard to throw this feeling far far away but the harder I try, the more I fall for you.
Everything you do seems right.
Every single thing you do makes me melt esp your singing.
I keep hearing your laughter play at the back of my mind and it hurts.
Everything you do makes it harder for me to get over you.
I wished I didn't throw the purple pen. It meant alot to me.
But I was angry at you and I threw it without thinking.
I tried asking the stupid fortune teller in Facebook but he keeps saying that we will never be together.
I tried more than 10 times and still he said no. I guess that stupid fortune teller is right. Maybe we're not meant to be together.
I'm sorry if I have ever hurt your feelings.
But no matter what, deep down at the bottom of my heart, there will still be a place for you.

Stolen by lucy Christopher

It happend like this.

I was stolen from an airport.

Taken from everything I knew,

eveything I was used to.

Taken to sand and heat, dirt and danger. And he expected

me to love him. This is my story.

A letter from nowhere.

Synopsis.

Sixteen year old Gemma is kidnapped from Bangkok airport and taken to the Australian Outback. This wild and desolated landscape becomes almost a character in a book, so vividly is it described. Ty, her captor, is no stereotype. He is young, fit, and completely gorgeous. This new life in the wilderness had been years on planning. He loves only her, wants only her. Under the hot glare of the Australian sun, cut off the world outside, can the force of his love make Gemma love him back? The story takes the form of a letter, written by Gemma to Ty, reflecting on those strange and disturbing months in the outback.

I’ve never read anything like Stolen before, and I don’t think I’ll get to again. Lucy Christopher has written a stunning debut that will capture the imaginations of everyone who reads it.it’s hard to put into words how much I loved Stolen. it was captivating, compelling and utterly compulsive. Gemma’s voice drew me into her world and her story from the very first page. Even after I finished Stolen I couldn’t stop thinking about, I even lay awake thinking about it.

Lots of elements of Stolen were new to me. It was written in second person which I’ve never read before. This increased the sense of intimacy as Gemma was writing to her captor, Ty, telling him her side of their story. The sparse, beautiful landscape of the Australian Great Sandy Desert was also new to me. I loved how there was so much life hidden in that desert, along with it’s complete isolation and Gemma and Ty’s connection to the land. In all it’s harsh reality it was still magical, especially with the inclusions of the legends of the Aborigine’s that Ty told Gemma.

Ty is one of the most difficult character. I hated him at first and I was constantly wishing him to let Gemma go. But then I began to get to know him as his story unfolded. He is a sympathetic character and sometimes very vulnerable but also frightening with the power he holds. But saying that, my favourite scene in the book centred around him - during and just after the reveal of Ty’s painting shed. It’s a stunning scene that will stay with me for a very long time. Those who’ve read this probably know exactly what scene I mean, but those who haven’t, I’m not going to tell you, you’ll have to read it for yourself!

P/S The ending made me cry.

Tinggalkan Saja-Kotak

huhu .
I have abandon my blog for some time alrdy due to my exams .
3 weeks baybeh~crazy!
ohh crap . I have no idea what to talk abt .
I'm not really happy tht exams are finally over cause we still have the stupid Excel starting Nov 2nd .
SS really knows how to torture their students .

well, i think i wanna share a lil creepy story .
since im alrdy here and i hv no idea what to bla abt .
so here it goes,
Last last thusday there was a dead bird behind my class .
it look like it slid down the wall cause the wall had blood stains .
and it's feathers were everywhere .
disgusting .
Then last week, tuesday if I'm not mistaken .
there was a dead rat in my class .
and it smelt horrible man .
so we talked to our class teacher and she allowed us to take our exams in another class .
and the next day, there was another dead rat in my class .
GAWD~! it smelt like-only-God-knows .
I wanted to puke .
and so we took our exam in another class again .
Thank God now no more alrdy .

and you know what's creepy and what gives me goosebumps ?
those 3 creatures died on the same spot .
now, isn't that weird ? creepy~~

okay, sry for the lame post . lack of stories/ideas alrdy ne .
I hv no idea what to bitch abt .
I'll be bck soon~hopefully .

xoxo