Randomly Delicate

I gotta feeling that 2010's gonna be a good year.

2010-01-01T06:16:00.000-08:00

I went to Ba Lin yesterday to celebrate New Year and it was awesome. the fireworks esp. My cousins from Australia were here, which made it extra awesome. had Midori, 2 glasses of beer and i can't remember. haha. All I know is I enjoyed myself. So this is just a short post cause I'm lazy to type.

my new year's resolution is:

-Study hard.
-Cut down on tv and computer.
-Concentrate more on my studies. I want 7A's
-Don't want any heartbreaks.
-Obey my parents. help with the chores.
-Read the Bible more.
-Get involve with more church activities.

SO BRING IT ON 2010, I'M GONNA ROCK 2010 ALL THE WAY.
XOXO

Every night I rush to my bed with hopes that maybe I'll get a chance to see you in my dream.

2009-12-30T07:22:00.000-08:00

I hate looking at myself and realizing that I don't like what I see. I hate looking back at things I did and wondering why was I like that. Everyday there's something wrong. Just one trivial thing that can make me unhappy for just a moment. It's like not even possible to have a day without a bad feeling.

What is it with guys and Dota? lol.

2009-12-16T00:45:00.000-08:00

rofl.

I miss all of them. Met 'em bck in KL.

2009-12-10T05:03:00.000-08:00

Aunty Pat(Dhiren's mum)

Pavitra.♥ cuzzie. miss you.

Vickknesh ♥ cuzzie.

cry baby cry

muka lempeng.

watching the wiggles

dancing to the wiggles.

Dhiren. ♥ I miss you.

after swimming

must be one of his screaming match. lol.

watching The Wiggles on youtube.

Nishad. ♥ my nephew.

Leha.♥ niece.

my crazy hyper niece Leha. ♥♥

Leha baby. ♥

Dhiren & The Wiggles.

2009-12-05T23:25:00.000-08:00

after swimming.

Dhiren's shocked look cause he can watch The Wiggles in the car.
His mum fixed a tv in the car.

so cutee :)

Jst got bck from KL yesterday night.
I miss Dhiren sooo much.

I MISS.

-Dhiren.
-The Wiggles.
-Waking up late and lazing around.
-Late night suppers with Sushil Mama.
-Sleeping late while watching Sushil mama drink his beers before he has dinner at 12 or 1 a.m.
-Looking for nursery rymes on youtube for Dhiren.
-Play Your Guitar With Murray, Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, Rock A Bye Your Bear, Small People, Say Hello and lots more.
-The way Dhiren holds me when he pee in his napkin.
-The look Dhiren gives when his napkin falls. haha.
-Dhiren's cheeky look.
-When Dhiren pretends to choke or cough.
-Dhiren's screaming match.
-SWIMMING WITH DHIREN. aaaa.
-Dhiren's elmo.
-Dhiren's sleeping outfit. so cute.
-Watching him play in the bathtube.
-The cheeky look Dhiren gives when he wakes up.
-When he wants us to take him go Kai Kai.
-Everytime I'm thirsty, I jst need to open the fridge and there'll be cokes, shandys,beers....
-Feeding Dhiren his cheesesticks.
-Burger king, Subway and McD.
-Shopping.

I miss everything. Holiday in KL. DHIREN...

Dhiren, jujubee, bubu, bebe, baby, dd, baby d,
LUKE DHIREN KUMAR LIM VASUDEVAN, I miss you sooo much. :(

I can't upload th other pics yet. I lost the camera cable.

Exaggerating.

2009-11-30T08:21:00.000-08:00

So I go on this merry go round trying to chase a love that can never be found.
Time to say goodbye.
It's over.

There wasn't anything I didn't love about you.
You'd do some stupid things and I'd laugh at those too.

Though you'd be the only one that can make me smile.
Though you'd be the only one that really knows how.
I gotta get you out of my system.

I replayed it over and over again.
You were my boy and now we ain't even friends.
You could have been my all or nothing.
But now to me you're nothing.

Put on a pedestal, boy I held you so high.
Was never to good at finding the words to describe.
Just how I felt of you but you know that I tried.
And you know exactly how I felt.

You damn near were my everything.
You're still in my mind.
But I'd rather be here all alone.
And I'm doing just fine.
Gotta take it back to the days before we met.
And live our lives as strangers again.

December days, my summer turned to winter when you went away.
I can't help but to wonder.
Was he worth my pain?
I cried and now I'm living with just memories.

I wish life had a backspace button.

2009-11-25T19:27:00.000-08:00

Syaz said;
"Face the shit Mel, this is life"
I guess that's what I'm gonna do.

When Boredom Strikes.

2009-11-17T04:41:00.000-08:00

candid. thanks syaz ♥

Deep ♥

CATFIGHT! haha.

like getek kn?

Syaz ♥

Mena ♥

Friends Forever-Vitamin C

2009-11-13T03:03:00.001-08:00

Deeennnn.

Tommy ♥

Amanda ♥

Zerhan

Edddrryyyy

San San ♥

Rose && Deep ♥

Ain && Sharmaine ♥

SYAZ ♥

Ain ♥

Reynalton (I wanna retake. ugly bha this pic. haha)

Datu

Deon

Yesterday was the last day of school.
but i had to go today for the hari kecemerlangan thingy. crap. =.=/
honestly, i miss school and my classmates alrdy.
I miss playing uno and joking around with all of them.
I miss Tommy talking to me abt the argument he had with his gf.
I miss talking and singing with San San.
I miss Edry's funny face. I miss pinching Deen's cheecks.
I miss playing uno with Deon, Edry and Datu coz the game will never end! hahaha.
weird...I actly miss Zerhan's "uii, purple pen" look. haha.
I'm gonna miss Imran who always listens to my lame stories and constant whining.
I miss Sharmaine, Ain, Syaz, Deep.

I miss having recess with Rose. 2 BURGERS AND 2 MILO KOTAK! ;p
I'm gonna miss friday's with Amanda.
I miss purple pen's laugh. the best :)
I MISS PURPLE PEN LIKE NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE.

omg. omg. omg. I actly cried last night. I can't believe i actly miss school. next year i'll be form5 alrdy, last year in school. I promise myself to be more hardworking next year. I wanna study hard.
I don't wanna simply be absent. I wanna appreciate school life. I wanna treasure every high school memory i'll ever have.

Dan Tak Mungkin-Agnes Monica

2009-11-10T23:50:00.000-08:00

What am I supposed to say or do when I'm all choked up and you're okay.

Did someone break your heart inside?

2009-11-08T05:03:00.000-08:00

isn't it ironic?
WE IGNORE THE ONE'S WHO ADORE US,
ADORE THE ONE'S WHO IGNORE US,
LOVE THE ONE'S WHO HURT US,
AND HURT THE ONE'S WHO LOVE US.

Take A Picture-Filter .

2009-11-06T03:10:00.000-08:00

Tommy. ♥ my friend yg sgt jiwang karatz. hahaha.

Rose, me and deep. ♥

Melo && Deep. ♥

Phoebe, San San, Rose, Me.

MR GANESAN. hahaha.
*ewww. i look so pale*

by Rose Tralala.

thnkss fr th boho Rose :D. ♥ it

What My Heart Needs To Say.

2009-10-28T05:05:00.001-07:00

Jiwangness ahead. :)
This is so not me but nda salah kn jdi jiwang skali skala. hehe.

Why? Why can't I forget you?
Why must it be you who stole my heart?
I know that I'm only lying to myself. I keep telling everyone that I'm over you and I hate you
but the fact is, my hearts still yearns for you.
There was a time before when your smile made me calm, your jokes made me joyful, your friendly attitude made me comfortable to be friends with you.
And your confusing attitude mad me more eager to know you.
I love seeing you in your KRS uniform. It made you look more gorgeous. ;)
And I know this may sound a lil weird and silly but I actually love looking at your hands and eyebrows. lol.
I enjoyed your sudden laughs which come out for no reason at all.
Everytime I hear the song Tinggalkan Saja by Kotak, your face pops up in my mind and without realising, there would already be tears rolling downs my cheeks.
Why can't I get over you? Why do I keep falling for you eventhough I know that it will only make me more hurt?
Am I stupid for still loving you? Is it wrong to love you?
Whats the big deal? Difference in our race and religion?
But it's not my fault, not yours either.This feeling is such a sudden one, it came without my willingness.
I know I may not be the kinda girl you like.
The pretty and fair one.
I ain't got much to offer but my heart and soul.
And I guess that's not enough for you to notice me.
I'm trying so hard to throw this feeling far far away but the harder I try, the more I fall for you.
Everything you do seems right.
Every single thing you do makes me melt esp your singing.
I keep hearing your laughter play at the back of my mind and it hurts.
Everything you do makes it harder for me to get over you.
I wished I didn't throw the purple pen. It meant alot to me.
But I was angry at you and I threw it without thinking.
I tried asking the stupid fortune teller in Facebook but he keeps saying that we will never be together.
I tried more than 10 times and still he said no. I guess that stupid fortune teller is right. Maybe we're not meant to be together.
I'm sorry if I have ever hurt your feelings.
But no matter what, deep down at the bottom of my heart, there will still be a place for you.

Stolen by lucy Christopher

2009-10-27T00:16:00.000-07:00

It happend like this.

I was stolen from an airport.

Taken from everything I knew,

eveything I was used to.

Taken to sand and heat, dirt and danger. And he expected

me to love him. This is my story.

A letter from nowhere.

Synopsis.

Sixteen year old Gemma is kidnapped from Bangkok airport and taken to the Australian Outback. This wild and desolated landscape becomes almost a character in a book, so vividly is it described. Ty, her captor, is no stereotype. He is young, fit, and completely gorgeous. This new life in the wilderness had been years on planning. He loves only her, wants only her. Under the hot glare of the Australian sun, cut off the world outside, can the force of his love make Gemma love him back? The story takes the form of a letter, written by Gemma to Ty, reflecting on those strange and disturbing months in the outback.

I’ve never read anything like Stolen before, and I don’t think I’ll get to again. Lucy Christopher has written a stunning debut that will capture the imaginations of everyone who reads it.it’s hard to put into words how much I loved Stolen. it was captivating, compelling and utterly compulsive. Gemma’s voice drew me into her world and her story from the very first page. Even after I finished Stolen I couldn’t stop thinking about, I even lay awake thinking about it.

Lots of elements of Stolen were new to me. It was written in second person which I’ve never read before. This increased the sense of intimacy as Gemma was writing to her captor, Ty, telling him her side of their story. The sparse, beautiful landscape of the Australian Great Sandy Desert was also new to me. I loved how there was so much life hidden in that desert, along with it’s complete isolation and Gemma and Ty’s connection to the land. In all it’s harsh reality it was still magical, especially with the inclusions of the legends of the Aborigine’s that Ty told Gemma.

Ty is one of the most difficult character. I hated him at first and I was constantly wishing him to let Gemma go. But then I began to get to know him as his story unfolded. He is a sympathetic character and sometimes very vulnerable but also frightening with the power he holds. But saying that, my favourite scene in the book centred around him - during and just after the reveal of Ty’s painting shed. It’s a stunning scene that will stay with me for a very long time. Those who’ve read this probably know exactly what scene I mean, but those who haven’t, I’m not going to tell you, you’ll have to read it for yourself!

P/S The ending made me cry.

Tinggalkan Saja-Kotak

2009-10-22T07:17:00.000-07:00

huhu .
I have abandon my blog for some time alrdy due to my exams .
3 weeks baybeh~crazy!
ohh crap . I have no idea what to talk abt .
I'm not really happy tht exams are finally over cause we still have the stupid Excel starting Nov 2nd .
SS really knows how to torture their students .

well, i think i wanna share a lil creepy story .
since im alrdy here and i hv no idea what to bla abt .
so here it goes,
Last last thusday there was a dead bird behind my class .
it look like it slid down the wall cause the wall had blood stains .
and it's feathers were everywhere .
disgusting .
Then last week, tuesday if I'm not mistaken .
there was a dead rat in my class .
and it smelt horrible man .
so we talked to our class teacher and she allowed us to take our exams in another class .
and the next day, there was another dead rat in my class .
GAWD~! it smelt like-only-God-knows .
I wanted to puke .
and so we took our exam in another class again .
Thank God now no more alrdy .

and you know what's creepy and what gives me goosebumps ?
those 3 creatures died on the same spot .
now, isn't that weird ? creepy~~

okay, sry for the lame post . lack of stories/ideas alrdy ne .
I hv no idea what to bitch abt .
I'll be bck soon~hopefully .

xoxo

Stupid Steroids.

2009-09-24T07:35:00.000-07:00

I guess I wont be kissing my fats goodbye this hols.
It also means that I won't be getting my burger from Imran!
Damn!
Thanks to the doctor!
I know steroids helps my asthma but it makes FAT TOO!!!!
wth.

It all started when I was packing my things to sleepover in Syaz's house. I decided not to bring my asthma inhaler as my asthma was already under control for the past two years. Then bla bla bla bla. We slept at 10.30 p.m. Suddenly I woke up at abt 3.30 or 4.00 a.m. I was having an asthma attack. God! I could hardly breath. I tried all possible positions and putting my pillow in different angles but nothing worked. It was so bad that I actually thought that I was gonna DIE! I texted my mum abt 4.30 asking her to bring my inhaler. I didn't call cause I could barely talk. But there was no reply. Then my phone rang. I rushed to pick it up thinking that it was my mum but it was actually Marvin!
Damn. And so I continued to suffer until abt 7 a.m. +. Then my mum arrived with my inhaler. I couldn't answer any of her questions. I just got the inhaler and took 4 puffs. And I was finally relieved. hahaha. What a relieve. Then my mum asked me if I wanted to get a nebulizer but I refused. I was just lazy to go to the hosp. Then that night, mum brought me to the doc. And he said I have to take steroids. I told him that I didn't want to. But he seaid I have no choice . Damn!

lastly,
Thanks Syaz! Had lots of fun in your house. I miss Nabila!
P/S Edward Cullen Is so irresistable! ;)

Twihard Enough ?

2009-09-23T04:37:00.000-07:00

Now I'm officially one of the Twilighters(Yeah yeah I know it's kinda late but hell who cares). Just couldn't resist posting this.I got it from some anonymous from some random website.For "normal guys" that might be reading this,mind you,It's not like I'm not into "normal guys" it's just that Stephenie Meyer's imaginary friend(Edward Cullen) is hard to resist !

Normal guys vs Edward Cullen

A normal guy would say: “I love you Baby!”
Edward Cullen would say: “You are my life now.”

Normal Guy would say: “I think I am falling for you.”
Edward Cullen would say: “The Lion fell in Love with the Lamb”

Normal Guy would say: “You hair looks like a haystack; go brush it!”
Edward Cullen would say: “Your hair looks like a haystack but I like it.”

A normal guy would pick a random song from a random artist and dedicate it to you.
Edward Cullen would sing you a song he wrote for you while playing the piano.

If you die, a normal guy would find another.
If you die, Edward would kill himself cause life without you isn’t worth living.

“Well, I wasn’t going to live without you..” He rolled his eyes as if that fact were childishly obvious. “..but I wasn’t sure how to do it. I knew Emmet and Jasper would never help so I was thinking maybe I would go to Italy and do something to provoke the Volturi.”

As you leave the house, a normal guy would say: “Bye, see ya!”
As you leave the house Edward Cullen would say: “Come back to me, love.”

He smiled my favorite smile. “Hurry back to me.”
“Always.”

As you come back to the house, a normal guy would be watching TV and wouldn’t even notice.
As you come back to the house, Edward Cullen would be welcoming you by playing the piano with a song just for you.

“I heard the music before I was out of the car. Edward hadn’t touched his piano since the night Alice left. Now, as I shut the door, I heard the song morph through a bridge and change into my lullaby. Edward was welcoming me home.’

A normal guy would wait for you to make him breakfast.
Edward Cullen would make you breakfast everyday.

While you are both out for dinner, a normal guy wouldn’t keep his eyes off the sexy waitress.
Edward Cullen wouldn’t even notice the waitress was a female.

A normal guy, while driving, would keep one hand on the wheel and one hand on the radio.
Edward Cullen, while driving, would keep one hand on the wheel and the other attached to yours.

While far apart in different places, a normal guy would say: “I miss you.”
While far apart in different places, Edward Cullen would say: “It’s like you’ve taken half myself with you”

A normal guy wouldn’t care or notice if you had nightmares.
Edward Cullen would sing until your nightmares went away.
“Do you want me to sing to you? I’ll sing all night if it will keep the bad dreams away.”

A normal guy does it with everyone.
Edward Cullen only does it with one.

A normal guy buys you flowers and chocolates.
Edward Cullen buys you a car. (THE BEST PART! HAHA!)

PS: I'm Team Edward :)

Like You're So Perfect, And I Can't Measure Up.

2009-09-10T23:05:00.000-07:00

haihh. It's been a long time since I last updated my blog.
I'm just too lazy plus I have nothing interesting to share.
Life's been okayy. I guess.
San2 slept abt 2/3 times in my house this week fr the stupid moral project.
On sunday we slept at....
wait, we didn't sleep at all.
We just did the project until 3.30 a.m...talked till 4.30 a.m.
and got ready for school.
Damn tired mann.
Puan leong commented on my eyebags today.
lol.

Today, the bell rang during recess.
While my friends were rushing to the canteen..
I sat still in my seat...waiting for Rose.
and Purple Pen came up to Edry's table...near mine too. ;P(ampitan)
and started to sing ne.
Whoa, he can sing! lol.
and Edry turned and gave this aisehh-purple pen-singing smile.
lol.
So funny.
He can sing!! omg. hha. tuh pun mau excited bha kn.
lol. poyo....
I told Imran"chumil kn dea?" and Imran's like"ee, chumil ka?"
lol.
Pity Imran, I know he must be sick and tired of my nagging and stories.
lol, sorry Imran. (:

swt. =.=/
I don't know what else to post.
I guess I'll have to wait till I have something interesting.
Since I'm bound to the same routine everyday. :(

Regret. But still I somehow believe in tht thingy.

2009-09-10T22:48:00.000-07:00

I regret taking tht fortune teller thingy. ugh!

Melissa Grace oh fuck. =.=/

Melissa ask to Fortune Teller Genius:

Asked Will purple pen get her? and the answer is What a good question! Of course!

Do you have a question?

Melissa Grace shit. regretttt. shouldn't hv took this thing.

Melissa ask to Fortune Teller Genius:

Asked Will I get Purple Pen? and the answer is hmmmmmm... no, really not

Do you have a question?

You're Like A Recurring Nightmare.

2009-09-04T06:35:00.000-07:00

Too many dreams of you last week.
I think all of those dreams has a meaning.
I don't know what do these dreams mean.
I'm curious.
Perhaps...
I need a dreams interpreter ?

I need YOU, whoever you are.
hha.
comment me in my blog or fb. ASAP!
lol.

Miss.Miss.Miss

2009-08-25T17:24:00.000-07:00

I wish you were here Papa :D
To celebrate with me .
sigh .
Tears rolled down on my face when I received your text this morning .
Miss you loads !

RUGRATS :D

2009-08-25T06:31:00.001-07:00

My bday gift from my maid .
Thanks kak Christina :D
berlah kecil bha, it's the thought tht counts bha kak . :)
It's name is Rugrats . (:

Why Does Love Always Feel Like A Battlefield ?

2009-08-24T00:06:00.000-07:00

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Random Is The Way I Like It :D

2009-08-23T04:51:00.001-07:00

I took few personality kinda quizzes in facebook recently .
And I find SOME of them quite true .
hhe .
Here are the results .

Loves to joke around, Suave and Caring, Brave and Fearless.
Firm and has leadership qualities. Know how to console others.
Too Generous and Egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises.
Extraordinary spirit. Easily Angered. Angry when provoked.
Easily Jealous. Observant, Careful and Cautious. Thinks Carefully.
Independent Thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led.
Loves to DREAM. Talented in arts, music, and defense.
Sensitive but NOT pretty. POOR RESISTANCE AGAINTS ILLNESS.
Loving and Caring. Loves to make new friends.

You wear your heart on your sleeves.
You are very in touch with your feelings and the feelings of others.
However, this oftens leaves you heartbroken. People take you and the things you do for granted.
Despite everything you've gone through life and relationship, you always find a way to recover.
(I think this one is really really true)

You have a split personality. One minute your you, and the next minute you have to put on a tough front.
You are very sexy. When you are on your though side, you are strong, sassy and aggresive.
But on the other side of you, you are sweet, and NOT VERY CONFIDENT. You like to have a good time,
and people love you too !

Well, what can I say about you. You Stand Out. Always have and always will.
Wheather you like it or not, people see you as crazy, friendly, freaky, cool, funny, outstanding person !
Everyone should like you for just being yourself, random is the way you like to live it. (:

And I answered those quizzes honestly okay peeps . :D

Emo Much ? lol .

2009-08-20T02:30:00.000-07:00

Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

I'm tired , I'm stressed out , I hate HIM .
I'm confused . I hate, I hate, I hate .
I just feel like throwing my heart in an ocean
So tht I wouldnt have to feel anything .
I wanna be HEARTLESS .
It's like I'm spinning round with mixed feelings .
I wanna scream out loud .

I didn't expect it turn out to be like this .
If I knew, I wouldnt have done it .
I regret, if only I could turn the clock back.....I would .

So many things around me are changing .
From bad to worst .
I'm out of control .
And all I can do is just stand watch all the walls around me crumble .
I have no strength to do anything .
I'm kinda going thru' this "emo" period , I guess .
I don't knw why . I don't knw whts wrong with me ?

I'm in the mood for Linkin Park's Numb, Crawling .
Avril Lavigne's I'm With You, Mobile, Fall To Pieces, My Happy Ending, Runaway .
Kotak's, Tonggalkan Saja . Kelly Clarkson's Behind These Hazel Eyes .
And all those emo songs .

my blog is the only way to relive and let go of everything without speaking .

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !

Why is eveyrthing so confusing ?
trying to firgure out this life .

sakit ati ku tingu ko bha .
sandi la idup ku klu tingu ko ari2 .
adeyy .
I wish it wasn't you .

Revenge Is Sweeter-The Veronicas .

2009-08-15T07:49:00.000-07:00

I saw it in the news
it told me they were wrong
and I stood up for you
'cause I believed you were the one

you had all the chances in the world
to let me know the truth
what the hell's wrong with you

are you even listening when I talk to you
do you even care what I'm going through
you stare and you're staring right through me
you're right there but its like you never knew me

do you even know I'm up to head
did you give up on me to be with her
Revenge Is Sweeter than you ever were

I'm so mad at you right now
and I can't even find the words
and you're on the way down
I can't wait to see you burn
you tried to make me hate that (?)
when I should be hating you
what the hell's wrong with you

are you even listening when I talk to you
do you even care what I'm going through
you stare and you're staring right through me
you're right there but its like you never knew me

do you even know I'm up to head
did you give up on me to be with her
revenge is sweeter than you ever were

revenge is sweeter than you ever were

nothing can save you now
that is over
I guess that you findd out
that you're no one
don't say you're sorry now
'cause I just don't care

nothing can save you now
nothing
nothing can save you now
nothing

are you even listening when I talk to you
do you even care what I'm going through
you stare and you're staring right through me
you're right there but its like you never knew me

do you even know I'm up to head
did you give up on me to be with her
revenge is sweeter than you ever were

revenge is sweeter than you ever were

Tagged by Manda :D

2009-08-14T21:59:00.000-07:00

1.What kind of song you usually listen to?
Anything would do . I'm a universal listener . (:

2.Name 10 of your favourite singers(Solo/Band)
whoa . this is hard shit mann .
em,
1.Eminem
2.Linkin Park
3.Agnes Monica
4.Taylor Swift
5. Beyonce
6.Britney
7.Hey Monday
8.Demi Lavato
9.Miley Cyrus
10. Kangen Band

3.What makes you like a song.
The lyrics definitely . The rhytm, the beat .

4.Most favourite clubbing songs
Forever-Chris Brown, Hot&Cold remix ?

5.Other than english songs, do you listen to song in other language
Malay,Indon,Chinese,sum latin and philipines .

6.Do you listen to chinese songs
yeap . luv 'em .

7.Open your player and press next until it goes to a chinese song and write it down.
Tong Hua-Guang Liang (what an old song still luv it thou)

8.Do you know what is the meaning of the song
About his girlfriend who is sick and is dying i think ?

9.Do you like the song
Yeap .

10.Press next again , write down the song.
Amazing Grace-Chris Tomlin . (my dad's fav song)

11.Do you buy original album or download songs illegally
I download 'em but not illegally . lol .

12.Based on question 2, according to the list name the your favourite song sang by the singer/band.

1. ALOT
2.ALOT
3.Teruskanlah
4.You Belong With Me
5.Righ The Alarm
6. ALOT
7.How You Love Me Now
8. Don't Forget
9. 7 Things
10. Jangan Menangis ?

13.Now tag 10 friends of yours.
1. Syafa
2. Balqis
3. Kay
4. Marilynn
5. Rufina
6. Marlia
7. Deepika

and anyone who wishes to do this . (:

14.Hard Part, find a song for each ot them.
uina j0 . hha .

1.Sugar-Florida
2. idk . lol .
3. Viva La Vida-Coldplay
4. Just A Dream-Carrie Underwood
5. idk . lol
6. em, sum Tokio Hotel song .
7. Poker Face-Lady Gaga

Forever . :D

2009-08-01T23:47:00.000-07:00

My dream wedding .
This is like the most awesome and coolest wedding ever .

I think everyone who attended that wedding
would remember it their whole life .
It's just so awesome .

Some people may disagree .
But who cares rite ?
It's your wedding day, you wanna remember it till eternity .
So do it as you wish .
And the haters will shut up .

Anyway, I'm sick of the
"Here Comes The Bride"
slow song where the bride has to walk slowly along the aisle .
Gawd ! That would make her hell more nervous .
This Forever by Chris Brown song which she dances to
is just "whooooaaaa" .
Something fun which would definitely reduce her nervous feeling .

I WANNA GET MARRIED LIKE THIS !!!

my bro said : Don't Dream Too Much Melissa !
hha . WHY ?

Tissue ? RAWR :D

2009-07-30T01:55:00.000-07:00

He Said: Love Sucks .
I know what he means .
I know who is he talking about .
(:
______________________________________________________________________________________

Falling For The Second Time ?
Ouh Gawd !
I can't stand it when he starts blushing .
He makes me melt .
Everytime when he askes me for tissues .
or when he calls me Grace just for the fun of it .
and when he taught me maths yesterday . :D
and when he got the most votes in Basketball today . (:
aaaaaaaaaaaa .
Tissue !
The Guy Who Blushes Alot !
I miss you . RAWR :D

BIGMAC :D

2009-07-25T02:15:00.000-07:00

I'm so craving for a BIGMAC .

I'm dying . I need it like NOWWWW .
It's the third 3rd time this week that I dreamt I was ordering a bigmac .
And before I could enjoy even a tiny lil bite
I wake up .
Gawd !
Why can't sandakan just have one McD ?!
arrgghhh .

Charles, get for me one when you're coming !!!!

This is what I'm talking about people . The Real Deal .
BIGMac .

This song goes out to you Purple Pen . :D

2009-07-23T02:10:00.000-07:00

It's Alright,It's Okay-Ashley Tisdale .

You told me
There's no need
To talk it out
'Cause it's too late
To proceed
And slowly
I took your words
And walk away

No looking back
I won't regret, no
I will find my way
I'm broken
But still I have to say

It's all right, ok
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
All right, ok
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I won't return
Our bridge has burnt down
I'm stronger now
All right, ok
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry

You played me
Betrayed me
Your love was nothing but a game
Portrait a role
You took control, I
I couldn't help but fall
So deep
But now I see things clear

It's all right, ok
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
All right, ok
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I won't return
Our bridge has burnt down
I'm stronger now
All right, ok
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry

Don't waste your fiction tears on me
Just save them for someone in need
It's way too late
I'm closing the door

Feel like shopping....

2009-07-05T23:21:00.000-07:00

Hair

What Shampoo brand do you use?
L'oreal

What Conditioner do you use?
same brand..

Do you use a flat-iron daily?
nope .

What styling products do you use?
Herbal essence dangerously straight sumthang .

Do you prefer your hair to be up or down?
i prefer it down .

Is your hair long or short?
Long . Wish it was longer .

Do you dye your hair?
nope . I want to ! when my dad gives the green light . :(

Do you use the same color,
-

How often do you dye your hair?
never ,

Face:

Do you wear make-up?
Eyeliner,mascara . sometimes . i prefer my face natural .

What brand of foundation do you wear?
I don't use foundation .

What brand of Mascara?
Maybelline .

Do you wear eyeshadow?
sometimes . depends on the place .

What brand?
idk . lol . my mum's one .

What color blush do you wear?
i don't usually wear blush...

What brand?
I borrow Aeyn's one sometimes . Bodyshop .

Lip stick or lip gloss?
I prefer lip gloss and lip butter since I'm still young .

If the answer is gloss, what flavor?
strawberry . currently, I like wildberry lip butter from bodyshop .

What kind of cleanser do you use?
Simple .

Do you use the Biore pore strips?
no i don't..

Nails:

Are your nails natural or fake?
natural .

Long or short?
short la if not kena saman RM2 . prefect bha . lol .

What color do you normally paint your nails?
light pink, purple, black .

Do you get manicures often?
nope .

What about pedicures?
same...nope .

Do you paint your toenails?
sometimes .

What color?
same as my fingernails .

Clothes:

What is your normal style?
the normal t's and jeans . sometimes skinny .

What is your favorite brand of clothes?
mix and match . :D

Where do you normally shop for clothes?
One utama .....---

Do you like to dress up, or are you more casual?
I love dressing up . But when you're living in sandakan casual is better .

Do you wear a belt with all of your pants?
yeah . coz dad always pulls my pants up...he said too low cut can see everything . lol .

Do you like flared leg pants?
hell no .

Do you wear shorts in the summer?
yeah .

How about tank tops?
yeah baby .

How many pairs of jeans do you own?
4 . skinnies and straight cut . luv the skinnes .

Shoes:

How many pairs of shoes do you have?
haha . shoes ? shitt . idk . but im always with my flip flops unless im goin to church .

Would you wear a pair of shoes that hurt your feet
heck no .

Are you a flip-flop lover?
ouh yeah baybeh . (;

What about stilletos?
yeap .

What size shoe do you wear?
school shoes-4 flip flop-9 heels-7-8....so idk .

Do you own a lot of dressy shoes?
two only . when you're living in sandakan . you don't need to own too much .

Do you own any Mary-Janes?
nope . hoping to get one soon .

Accessories:

What is your favorite accessory?
bangles . bracelets . necklaces .

Do you have a lot of jewelry?
i do but not much . recently my bro got me sum from forever21 . so thts the best . I don't collect 'em .

How many pairs of sunglasses do you own?
I lost mine . shitt .

Don't you just love the big sunglasses?
ouh yeahhh !

Do you wear earrings daily?
nope . wanna pierce 2 . dad said no, just one . so lazy to wear la .

What about necklaces?
always !

Rings?
no..

Bracelets?
bangles .

How many watches do you own?
currently im wearing the one my bro got me . Denni (: not a fan of watches but i cant live without 'em .

Do you wear a watch daily?
of coz ! i would be lost without it .

How many purses do you have?
including bags 7 la . most of it roxy only .

Do you switch purses often?
always ! to match my outfit .

Does your wallet have to match your purse?
nope . lol .

Are your purses the huge ones, or are they smaller?
smal and normal size .

Unmentionables:

Do you buy the frilly, girly underwear, or plain cotton ones?
like Qiz . the plain...printed . as long as it's cute .

How do you feel about thongs?
i think it's weird . how do you where that thing ? lol .

Does your bra HAVE to match your undies?
same like qiz, sometimes...at least color-coordinated lahh..

How many bras do you have?
6 i guess ?

How many pairs of panties do you own?
tonnes !

What about socks, how many pairs?
school socks..a whole drawer of 'em . and 2 nike ones . i don't use 'em . lol .

Do you wear different colored socks, or do you prefer plain white?
depends .

Tagging..

Deepika
Kay
Mia
Marilynn
Syafa
Rufina

Your Little Girl .

2009-07-03T08:00:00.000-07:00

I miss my dad so much right now .
I just wish he was here .
Things would be much much better .
I hate it that you missed part of my childhood .
I wish you were to see me growing up each day .
I don't like seeing you 5 months once .
It ain't fun and I miss you .
Ouh gawd !
No words can describe my feelings rite now .

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I miss you papa .

These Things I'll Never Say....

2009-06-22T07:36:00.000-07:00

Hey "DR" a.k.a Purple Pen .

Can everything between us really get better?

Because it hurts like this.
And when i see you being effortless,
I get discouraged.
What am i fighting for??
Love??
With who??
For who??
For what??
I love you and i will always do.
Everything i do. EVERY single thing.
Its all for you.
And you...
You just don't see it.
You see nothing.

I miss you . :(

True Friends-Miley Cyrus .

2009-06-13T01:41:00.000-07:00

Pictures of me and Syaz .
Taken yesterday before the movie . :D

I Do Not Hook Up-Kelly Clarkson .

2009-06-12T02:23:00.000-07:00

Oh Gawd !
F*ck NIE .
2000 word essay .
I just realised that I have not done my
goddamnit moral and sivik project .
And I'm not done with the NIE competition 's
2000 word essay .
And I have to pass it all up on monday .
Today's friday .
I doubt I can finish it up by Monday .
Damn it !
Where the hell are my group members ?
I'm so stressed out that I can cry .
I don't even know where to start .
I have got all the info(s) for the NIE essay .
Just need my mum to check if it's suitable .
I have no idea how the cover should be .

Meanwhile, I've been trying to release my stress .
Enjoying the last days of hols .
While counting the days for school to reopen .
Besides Facebook's Mafia Wars .
I have been on one of the most hilarious website .
Perez Hilton's website .
It's a goddamnit awesome website mann !
link, http:perezhilton.com/
And seventeen.com

gtg and continue with my stuffs .

Here are some LOL youtube videos links
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cNkp4QF3we8
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=meu6WlGo8R4
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=plKs24Uvk-s
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_RgL2MKfWTo

The Climb-Miley Cyrus

2009-06-10T04:11:00.000-07:00

Yeah baby, I'm totally in love with that song .

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

em, I slept over at Mai's house yesterday, again . Before that as usual we went to kbox and all . Then we went to the cc to search for info for the NIE thingy . After we got those infos we couldn't save it in the pendrive . Something wrong with the stupid comp . =.=/ But thank God the kakak there was willing to help . She saved it her email sent it to me later on . Thanks Roselyn ! (: Then we went back to Mai's house . So much for our plan to the NIE thingy in the night . We spent the whole night talking, and Mai got....ahahaha ! sshhh . lol . And then today morning the actual plan was to come to my house and go online and search for infos and again our plan got cancelled . Juju called and asked us to go for a movie with Mimie . (: so yeah, Night At The Museum . Damn funny . Okay, LOL movie . While waiting for my mum , we had a drink in a-so-called-cafe la . When my mum arrived we all stood and waited in front of the cafe then we got into the car . On the way, Mai was like "staga, teda plk kita bayar minuman kta tdi" . We were all like . OMG !!! embarassing . lol . Then my mum asked to go tomorrow and get it settled . ahahahaha . haihh . embarassing .
Sorry for such a boring post .

Just Woke Up Face .

Juju, Melo, Mai

BFF-Before Movie

BOWLING TIME ! Me, Juju, Mimie .

Juju, Mai, Melo, Mimie .

Playboys . Gawd! You guys should get a life !

2009-06-07T00:10:00.001-07:00

I got this from Dora .
Whooa . I totally love it .
Everything below...so damn true .

Bebedah kau lelaki playboy !!!

kau fikir kau tu kacak kau boleh mengorat siapa2 saja yang kau mau la hah??? TOLONGLAH!! lelaki macam kau nie boleh berambus dari dunia nie ko tau!

kau x kenal erti setia!
kau anggap semua perempuan sama saja!
sedangkan kasih nya padamu tulus!

KAU MEMANG BEDEBAH!

kau tak tau menghargai perempuan!
kau ucap "i miss you..i love you..muach" pada kekasih hati tapi apa?? KAU BEDEBAH!!
kau ucap juga kata2 itu pada perawan lain..

kau kata kau sayang kekasihmu
tapi apa kau buat?
cukup sekadar sebuah ciuman di bibir gadis lain
dan kau tipu dia!! kekasihmu! kasihan ah kasihan
kau tak mengerti rasanya
bila kita dikhianati kekasih sendiri yang amat kita sayangi
apa kau faham?
TIDAK!
SEBAB KAU BEDEBAH!!

"Miss..Love.."? kau fikir senang ucap kata itu?
Cukup lah pada cinta mu..
Yang kau GATAL, SUNDAL mau ucap pada si dara yang lain kenapa?
jika dia yang mengucapkan kata2 itu padamu, benar ya benar hatinya
KAU PULA?? nafsu serakah mu tak sah kalau bukan pada yang satu!
sebab itu aku panggil KAU BEDEBAH!!

Ahhhhh
Dia cukup sayang kan kau, kau tahu tak??
Dia mimpikan kau! Dia selalu lihat kau tatkala matanya tertutup
Katanya "Cinta ini hanya untuk dia, hanya dia"
TAPI HOI LELAKI KAU MEMANG BODOH DAN BEDEBAH!
kau tak nampak ka dia sayang sangat dekat kau hah??

TOLONG LAH! PLEASEE!
dia berhabis duit untuk kau, buat diri dia sentiasa cantik agar kau tak pergi pada gadis lain
dia sanggup pergi topup untuk kau, walaupun dia terpaksa jalan kaki sejauh itu
semuanya untuk kau!
dia sanggup tak tidur malam, kalau kau online waktu tu
dia sanggup tak tidur malam, untuk call kau saja
dia sanggup dia sanggup dia sanggup

ITUPUN KAU TAK NAMPAK KA HAH??

KAU BUTA??

aku tanya betul2 ni

kau jangan diam2 situ

KAU JAWAB!!!

kau jangan gelak!

BEDEBAH PUNYA LELAKI

Kau kata kau boleh hantar kekasih hatimu ke mana saja dia mahu pergi
Wahhh, Benarrr...Dia TERHARU kau kata begitu
ALAMAK sayangnya, kenderaanmu itu sudah berganti-ganti gadis di dalamnya
kau ucap benda yang sama pada MEREKA..
kau fikir apa?
perempuan ini baju? senang dibeli, senang koyak, senang dibuang? begitu?
alah membeli menang memakai?
KEPALA MU LAH senang dibeli senang koyak senang dibuang!
oh aku pasti KAU MEMANG BEDEBAH!

Kepada sesiapa yang terasa a.k.a PLAYBOY ni: "Aku tau kau memang dalam keadaan sedar ketika membaca ni, TAPI aku tau ko memang TAKKAN SEDAR la bengok!! cermin diri kau tu! kau ingat balik apa akan jadi one day nanti, bila perempuan yang pada masa tu kau betul2 sayang, kau betul2 betul betul betul sayang, tiba2 tinggalkan kau atau lagi teruk, PERMAINKAN KAU! ingat! karma itu berlaku! ahh kau takkan sedar punya lah!"

SAYA PERCAYA KARMA ITU BERLAKU

saya punya pengalaman

*****reda sedikit rasa marah, entah kenapa...terima kasih kerana menyedarkan saya kembali dari tidur yang lena dan mimpi indah nan sementara ini

-Nur Isadora Ismail . :D

Bailin. :D

2009-06-05T07:54:00.001-07:00

So yeah, I finally went to Bailin just now .

And my tummy still feels hot and weird after all the drinks I had .
Lets see, Bloody Mary--Planter's Spunch--White Russian--Tianacholed--Strawberry somethang --Beer . Gawd~! There's burning sension in my tummy .
Must be because of those mixed up drinks . lol .
The cozy atmosphere was awesome ! loved it (:
It was windy . which made it more awesome .
Met my ex cyclist trainer and some other trainees too . wee~~!!
Gawd~! My tummy still hurts .
I love lovee loveed the White Russian drink .
But the Bloody Mary ! haihhh . I would describe it as BLOODY HELL .
When the waiter brought the Bloody Mary he said "Only unique people can have this drink" Dang~! I thought it would taste great but it turned out to be the most horrible drink I've ever had .
And I finally ended up having a glass of beer after the White Russian .
Ouh yahh, Bailin also had this kinda of sofa's which looked like beds .
And my dad was like "wahh, clever ohh the owner...after having a drink with the girl can sleep there somemore " lol . wth . pa...paa....
And again in the car my dad said "wahh, how good if I was still 23..now?
How to sleep there with my four children ?" lmao .
btw, the waiter who was serving us was hawt . xd (;

Dad was disturbing and making fun of me taking pics .

Don't mind the ugly smile .

Enjoying every bit of the White Russian . ~menikmati .

The White Russian .

:D

I finally ended up having a glass of Beer as my last drink .

The Drink Of The Day .
BLOODY MARY .
Which gave me HELL .

Angels And Demons .

2009-06-04T22:32:00.001-07:00

I watched Angels and Demons last night with my family .
As usual, the movie was great .
It had Tom Hanks in it .
It was such an awesome + complicated movie .
Which made it more interesting .
To prove it watch youself ! (:
And another prove would be for the first time
my dad didn't sleep off . lol .
And for the first time he also didn't say "what crap was that ?"
lmao . Since he always says that after every movie we watch .
esp Harry Potter . lol .

About the movie...
I wonder how they allowed it to be taken in the
Vetican...or whatever you call it .
The director, Ron Howard must have splurged alot of money for it .

Sinopsis I guess ?

Angels & Demons has partially lived up to the expectations and hype that it has created among the movie going community in last one year's time. It started on a high note and maintained the pace well enough to keep the viewer on the edge of the seat, till the last 20 minutes. Director Ron Howard missed it in the last 20 minutes and you have that odd after-taste once the movie is finished.

The movie started with the death of the Pope and is followed by the theft of a canister containing Anti-matter. From there, a Harvard symbologist, Robert Langdon takes over. The story is well written by Dan Brown, which never lost the attention of the reader in its novel form. Akiva Goldsman did a fine job in adapting the story as a screenplay. There was enough of wit thrown in extremely fast paced story making sure that you will not get bored.

The good point that is to be noted is Ron Howard has learned from his past mistakes of adapting the Dan Brown novels. Davinci Code was a slow paced movie and it really never kept the viewer riveted to the plot. Also, in trying to stick to the novel, it made fun of itself at points. But, Angels & Demons has lot of deviations from the original novel which resulted in a better movie. Actually, Davinci Code was a failure as a movie. You will enjoy the movie only if you have already read the book. But, A&D can be enjoyed by people who haven't read the book also.

Vettoria Vetra was one thing I hated in the movie. The actress who did that role is relatively unknown and as expected, Ayelet Zurer could not make her presence felt anywhere in the movie. I still wish Ron has opted for Monica Belluci.

Go watch the movie, if you like fast paced thrillers with a plot twist at the end.

Lip Gloss-Lil' Mama

2009-06-04T22:08:00.000-07:00

Last Wednesday, I went to Body Shop .
I am currently broke . :(
So I could only buy the
WILD CHERRY LIP BUTTER .
And I love it :D

Rich, intensive moisturiser for the lips with tantalising wild cherry.
Its creamy butter-like texture melts onto the lips to help prevent dryness,
leaving them feeling soft, smooth and kissable.

Glamorous-Fergie .

2009-06-04T21:23:00.000-07:00

I have been in a shopping mood this past few days .
I feel like splurging alot of money .
Shop Till I Drop~
Unfortunately, the stuffs I want.....they don't have it in Sandakan .
*sigh*
Sandakan Sucks Bigtime !
Still love it thou . (:

Shopping Mood .

Roxy Hoodies . (:

Clocks

Semangat aku bangun pagi ne . lol .

BAGS !

I am head over heels in love with this bag .
idk why .
I hope they have it in a different colour .
Well, thats if they still have it .

Britney's Fantasy .

I am totally in love with this .
The scents in nice .
My cousin in Australia has this and I've tried it .
Whoa...nice (:

Take A Picture-Filter .

2009-06-03T15:58:00.000-07:00

Thanks Dev and Charles for the Roxy Bags,
and
Forever21 accessories .
Luv 'em . (:
The song title goes to you .
Since you love that song .
:D

Rich Girl-Gwen Stefani .

2009-06-03T07:06:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna die of boredom soon .
Gawd! It's killing me .
I'm currently addicted to Facebook's Mafia Wars .
Atleast that helps me kill abit of my boredom .
:(
Dang~!
I've got the green eye now.
I kinda envy alot of people now .
Dang~!
It's not that I hate 'em or what but I just envy the things they have .
I envy the lifestyle they have, their hawt body, their bf's, their results .
And the list goes on, it never ends .
I'm a human . An average teenage girl . So yeah .

I want to get and achieve a list of things. A long list.

THE LIST .

1. Treadmill . ( I need to burn my goddamnit fats )
2. A laptop . (I know I've got two pc's already, still...)
3. The Body Shop ( I have a list of items)
4. I need a new pair of Nike shoes . ( I'm sick of my current one )
5. Roxy !
5. I need lotsa novels . (:
6. McD (I'm craving for McD now ) yumm .
7. More novels . (:
8. Caps ( currently obssesed with caps)
9. New hp .
10. Ipod .
11. Better grades .
12. Drink More Water .
13. Exercise . Workout !
14. HIM ! ( I desperately need him in my life)
* Fingers Crossed* Amen . :D

and the list goes on and on .

Actually, most of the things above ain't that hard to get or achieve .
But there are few hard to achive ones like number 11 and 13 .
But *fingers crossed* again . Amen . :D
And the absolutely impossible ones are number 1 and 14 .
Yeah, number 1 coz my dad will ask me to go for jogging not use the treadmill .
Lazy Bumm bha me . Adeyy .
And number 14 . Dang~! no idea .
*Fingers Crossed* Again . Amen . :D

I have no idea why this pass few days I've been using this "dang!" word so many times in a sentence sometimes . DANG ~!
see ?
Until my dad replied me and said "Dang, dong, ding, ur head la"
Dang~!
lol .

Jikalau Aku-Ezlynn .

2009-06-01T21:34:00.000-07:00

To me, guys are all the same .
I'm sorry but it's true .
No matter how good they are .
They are still guys .
And they're all the same .
Senang betul ucap kata-kata love, miss kn ?
Like it dosen't even mean a thing to 'em .
Love, miss....do ya'll really understand the meaning of those words ?
Saying it like ya'll don't even mean it .
Miss...love....
wtf lah .
Look at your friendster profile..
The amount of girls you chat with...have you ever thought of me ?
But when I talk to guys..you will make such a big deal about it .
Miss...love..yeah right .
You say those words too much that it worths nothing anymore .
You said you love me . Well, prove it then .
How am I supposed to believe you ?
How am I supposed to give you a chance ?
Prove to me that everything you said is true .
haihh .

How You Love Me Now-Hey Monday .

2009-06-01T05:27:00.000-07:00

HIDUP INI MEMANG PALAT ; TAPI ESOK MASIH ADA .

Trying to live by that quote .
Sounds stupid I know .
(:

Untouched-The Veronicas .

2009-06-01T03:59:00.000-07:00

I feel so untouched and I want you so much .

That I just can't resist you, it's not enough to say that I miss you .
I feel so untouched right now, need you so much .
Somehow I can't forget you, I've gone crazy from the moment I met you .

Oh, Purple Pen .
I miss you so damn much right now .
*sigh*
Words are not enough to describe how much I miss you right now .
Just wish that you know how much I love you .
I'm sorry :(
I should have left it like that .
I regret . sooo much .
I miss the way it used to be .
Friends Not Lovers .

The Roxy Guy With The Most Adorable Hair . ;)

2009-06-01T01:42:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday I went to Batu Putih which is located in mile7 for Mai's brother's wedding .
Abang Tengek & Shakila . (:
So there was this funny incident .
After the bersanding ceremony or whatever you call it .
We were about to go back .
Mai told me "naa mel, ilang la ne slipar kta"
and I was like "eyh, ko ni, jan gtuh bha"
And we both when to look for our slippers .
Since there was so many people and tonnes of slippers .
So I couldn't find mine .
After searching, it was missing !
missing ! missing !
wth =.=/
My roxy flip flops was gone .
I was panicked as it belongs to my sister .
I tried to take a deep breath .
Then I said "uii, mna slipar ku? ilang mai . naa, matilah"
After that Mai spotted this guy whose hair is like the guy
in the Orchid&Kelapa shampoo advertisment . lol .
He was seriously looking at the bride and groom from outside .
And Mai said "excuse me, slipar spa ko gna tuh?"
And he gave us such a stupid answer that I actually forgot to laugh .
He said "ouh, ne ka slipar kmu..alaa, sorry la...kmi ne org susah."
dang~! I really wanted to say "duii, jdi bule la kmu guna slipar org ssuka ati?"
I mean wtf mann . =.=/
And since then Mai and me named him The Roxy Guy .
ish . Not suitable for him bha .
Low class bha that ambal .
lol .
I'm so bad kan . lol .
But haihh , whatever it is , he has no right to use people's slippers without permission .
As if he came to the wedding without a footwear .
Tak logik langsung eyh .

I Am Who I Am .

2009-05-31T03:19:00.000-07:00

ARRRGGGGHHHHHH .
FUCK !
GODDAMNIT !

I AM WHO I AM .
DO NOT COMPARE ME TO OTHERS .
I HATE IT .

It's not my fault I'm born like this .
Don't keep scolding me .
It ain't easy for me either .
And I fucking hate it when you try to compare me with others .
I wish I wasn't like this either .
Don't keep shouting at me .
Ask God why !
I'm sick of asking, praying, crying .
I'm done doing all that .
aarrghhhhhhh .

Once I've said that I hate Sibuga .
I mean it .
And I ain't going there no matter what .
Can't ya'll just accept it without questioning ?
Peace, quiet, whatsoever la .
I don't fucking care anymore .
I hate it .

FUCK .
GODDAMNIT !

Fifteen-Taylor Swift & Miley Cyrus .

2009-05-30T02:23:00.002-07:00

This song brings alot of memories .

It's just awesome .

Taylor Swift - you're the best ! (:

This song suite me and my bff so much .

It actually made us cry coz mmg sesuai la ngn kmi .

rite mai ? (:

Fifteen-Taylor Swift & Miley Cyrus .

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors

It's the morning of your very first day

And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while

Try and stay out of everybody's way
It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here

For the next four years in this town

Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say

"You know, I haven't seen you around before"

'Cause when you're fifteen

and somebody tells you they love you

You're gonna believe them

And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out

Well, count to ten, take it in

This is life before you know who you're gonna be

Fifteen

You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail

And soon enough you're best friends

Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool

We'll be outta here as soon as we can
And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car

And you're feeling like flying

And you're momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one

And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends

When the night ends

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you

You're gonna believe them

When you're fifteen and your first kiss

Makes your head spin 'round

But in your life you'll do things greater than

Dating the boy on the football team

But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted

Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday

But I realized some bigger dreams of mine

And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy

Who changed his mind and we both cried

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them

And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall

I've found time can heal most anything

And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

Your very first day

Take a deep breath girl

Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

I'm in the purple and Mai is in the pink . BFF (: .

YakinShaKo ! (;

2009-05-30T02:23:00.001-07:00

Teman Tapi Mesra (:

2009-05-30T02:03:00.001-07:00

hmmmm....I just came back from Mai's house and the wedding ceremony .
Gosh~! The journey to the bride's house was such a long one .
And it was damn hot there . haihhh .
I wish I could join them again tonight but my dad is coming back from Indonesia at 6.30 p.m . Can't wait !!! Miss my dad so much . It's been 5 months since I met him . :(

Anyway , I wanna blog about this guy, F . He is my friend . I met him in 2007 . We meet every week . It's not like we plan to meet but everytime I go to my friend's house and I feel like meeting him, he will just appear from no where . Such a coincidence . He dosen't have a phone so we can't contact each other . But somehow we get to meet almost every weekend until he shifted to kk . And we lost contact after that . Then, about two weeks ago, he called me from kk . And he said he loves me . wth =.=/ that's like soo impossible . He has never shown any sign that he loves me . So yeah , I didn't believe it . I've never looked at him that way . He is just a friend , not more . Sigh ~! My friends told me to accept him but I think he is too playful for me . Too immatured eventhough he is one year older than me . Haihh . Good looking also bha dea . ahaha . Haihh . Confused . but I think me+him=TEMAN TAPI MESRA .

Teman Tapi Mesra - By Ratu

Aku punya teman
Teman sepermainan
Dimana ada dia selalu ada aku
Dia memang manis
Dan juga baik hati
Dan dia slalu ada waktu untuk membantuku

Namun aku bingung
Ketika dia bilang cinta
Dan dia juga katakan
Tuk ingin jadi kekasihku
Cukuplah saja berteman denganku
Janganlah kau meminta lebih
Kutak mungkin mencintaimu
Kita berteman saja
Teman tapi mesra

Aku memang suka pada dirimu
Namun aku ada yang punya
Lebih baik kita berteman
Kita berteman saja
Teman tapi mesra

2009-05-30T02:03:00.000-07:00

Bencinta-Faizal Tahir .

2009-05-24T07:43:00.001-07:00

Gosh~! I juz love this song like sooo sooo much .
It just mathches how I feel .
It's like everytime I listen to this song , I become one with the song .
Cheyh, not so jiwang la .
Well, all Faizal Tahir's songs are awesome like Coba . That was a great song too .
But too bad I don't like Faizal Tahir that much . He looks proud . Well, my friend said he is .
So yeah, eventhough he is kinda good looking . (;
lol .
okay laa...I have nothing much to blog about today .
Just a brief one....
I slept over in Mai's house yesterday . It was her birthday . A not so great one I would describe it as . She fought with her bf, again . And she started crying and she actually broke both her sim cards into half . I was shocked . Then I finally calmed her down . And she refused to talk about it . So I left it as it is . I didn't wan to make it worst by asking too many questions . After that, I brought her to Strawberry and asked her to choose what she wants as her birthday gift and she choosed a Lulu Belle purse . Then we headed to kbox . We were both stressed out , esp her . We sang 22 songs till we were both out of breath . Hahaha . I thought I was gonna get an asthma attack . LoL . Anyways, it was fun . Then, just after we sang the last song....her brother opened the door and said "Suprise....Happy Birthday Mai!" We were both shocked . Hahaha . Then she said thank you and he said her dad is waiting downstair to take us for a meal . So we werw both very excited esp Mai . She really didn't expect this suprise . I could see the joy on her face . But it all turned out to be a nightmare . As soon as we came down from kbox, everything was still normal, her bro was joking around with us . Until her dad came and started shouting at the both of us . Eventhough I couldn't understand a word her dad was saying but I knew he was really mad . He thought Mai had gone out with her bf and sengaja turned off her handphone . Plus he dosen't like Mai dating . But whatever it is, he shouldn't have scolded her because it was her birthday . And believe me, it was humiliating mann . He shouted at us in front of kbox . Everyone around there was staring at us . Damn...."terkenal sda muka2x kmi d kbox j0,btu 4 lg" Then on the way home, he scolded Mai again . Gosh~! Pity her . As soon as we thought it was over, her mum scolded her again at home . Fuckk mann . Anyways, I slept over to accompany her and to avoid her getting extra scolding . sigh~ I manage to help her and her bf settle their problem, again . I want the best for my bff . (:
Okayy, I'm tired . Thats all for now .
xoxo

Bencinta-Faizal tahir .

Benarkan ku 'tuk berbicara...
Bicara terus ke hati mu... Hati mu...
Hati yang penuh rasa ragu
Jangan terus pergi
Tanpa mendengar ku
Mungkin mudahUntuk kau terus berlalu
Nanti dulu
Berikanlah waktu
Untuk aku, untuk kamu

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat muLidah kelu sedangkan aku
Mahu kau tahu
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu

Ke tepi lihat ku berlalu
Pasti itu yang terbaik untuk ku
Tiada lagi mahu ku tahu
Tentang hidup kamu
Tentang mati kamuAku tahuEngkau tahu apa yang mata ku tahu
Apa yang kau tunggu
Mahu aku buka pintu?

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Sedang aku mahu kau tahu
Dengar kata ku
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu
Sakitnya aku
Membenci kamu

Sakit lagi mencintai mu
Dan aku pergi
Tapi kembali
Benci aku mencintai diri mu
Ku benci... Kamu
Ku cinta... Kamu

Songs That Potrays My Current Mood .

2009-05-21T04:23:00.000-07:00

1. Cinta Ini Membunuhku-D'Masiv
2. Unbreakbale-Fireflight
3. Hate Really Don't Like You-Plain White T's
4. Never Ever-Ciara
5. Heartless-Kanye West
6. Lelaki Buaya Darat-Ratu
7. Out From Under-Brtney Spears
8. So What-Pink

Why Not A Book Instead Of A Drink Or Dinner ?

2009-05-16T19:18:00.000-07:00

She flipped through a random book, examining the text – whether the shape, the size and style were to her liking. She was just an Average Jane, living an average life with a meagre salary – nothing special, nothing too extreme about her. She was just an ordinary girl, spending her time during lunch break buying the items she loved the most – books. Her life was never once out of the ordinary, stagnant even. The only time she came alive and started to breathe is when she indulged in text.

She proceeded to walk past a number of aisles, from general interest to fiction, and fiction to literature. Catching her watchful eyes from the corner, stood a dark-haired man in a formal grey business suit. He was incredibly delectable, with an outstanding profile. She wasn’t expecting him to look up at her approach, so she proceeded to walk further down to the ‘Hobbies’ section. He kept his head down, poring over a book the entire time. And the second she looked away from him, he lifted his head and caught sight of her. After all, she was at his far right. He took no further notice and continued reading.

At that moment, something was running through her mind.

How nice would it be for a gentleman, instead of saying “Can I buy you a drink,” to say “Can I buy you a book?”

It would be the most charming thing to say – at least, to her.

“Excuse me.” A deep, low and breathy voice interrupted her train of thought. Her head jerked upwards and turned around to the voice emanating from her behind. It was the handsome man she saw a while ago!

“Excuse me.” He repeated, looking at her. “Can I buy you a book?”

She inwardly gasped, but was conscious of her surroundings first, looking around her for signs of another person this was could possibly be referring to. She was the only one there.

“Um … I beg your pardon?” She asked, secretly wondering if he was a skilled mindreader.
He did not answer immediately. He stared at her for a while, as if in a world of his own, not concentrating. Then he spoke again.

“I was just … wondering if you happened to mind the idea of me … getting a book, for you.” He said politely.

“No! Not at all!” She answered almost immediately, and added, “But if I may ask … why?”“A gift.” He said nonchalantly.“A gift …” She repeated. “Alright, but I haven’t got anything to give you in return, mister …?”

He silently ignored the enquiry of his name.“I think if you wish to return the favour, Miss, you should pick up a book and allow me to purchase it for you.” He gave a small smile and a prompt nod. He then returned to his book, flipping it open once more.

Just then, she noticed the book he was holding. It was an intelligent thriller slash mystery book by John Grisham, only read by those high in intelligence and understanding.She thought opportunities like this seldom happen, especially to wa girl like her. So then she got the idea of picking up a book that was as witty and as intelligent as the one he chose.

So she did. She picked up another book written by John Grisham, a book she had never heard of before, or even seen in her entire life. She quietly approached him, with the book clutched in her hand.

He looked up, and saw her with the book.“John Grisham, aye?” He said. “Did you like ‘A Time To Kill’?”

She was stunned. She had never even peeked at the cover at all.

“Uh … yes.”“Very good, do you think that the book actually depicts our world and our society, on racism and politics very well?”“Sure. Why not?” She laughed nervously.

He looked away and smiled for a moment, before he held out his hand and gently seized the book from her hands, and placing it on the shelf.“You know …” He paused. “I would like you to choose a book that … defines you. A book that spells you. One that you would actually like.” He politely held out his hand, pointing towards the Fiction section.

Her eyes widened.How did he …?

“Alright. Just a moment, if you please.” She managed to smile and duck her head in embarrassment. She turned on her heels and walked to the suggested section and began searching …

She managed to shortlist her choices to three, carefully avoiding the ones she knew she would never open. The thought of her picking a book that was beyond her maximum intelligence and him finding out, and the embarrassment of it all, assailed her mind. She conveniently ignored the cruel voice within her reminding her NEVER to choose a book to impress others.

“Found one already?” He nodded as she finished, his hands in his pockets.“Yes, I have.” She shook the book.“Good timing, am just about to leave for office. Shall we?” Again he held his hand out, in a gesture clearly saying ‘Ladies first’.

“Will you wait here while I purchase your book?” He said.

“Of course.”

He strode to the counter with an assured air of a man, one hand still in his pocket, the other holding the book.She reminded herself while he paid that she would thank him and ask for his name.

“Here you go.” He lifted it, carefully wrapped in a gift bag

.“Oh, thank you so much, this wasn’t necessary, really.”

She said, kindly referring to the gift bag.“No, I insist. It is, after all, a gift.”

“Thank you, very much.” She smiled at him.“You are most welcome.

Now … do have a good day.”

He bowed slightly in a courteous manner, and added,

“Excuse me.” He walked out of the store.

“Wait, wait! I didn’t catch your name!”

She yelled after him.He didn’t turn, he didn’t let her know what his name was,

all he did was give a small wave with his hand – with his head still turned to the front.

“Wait!” She said helplessly, as he disappeared into a corner. She then muttered to herself, “How will I know who you are?”

Who was that man? Who was he?

Thoughts of him clouded her mind, as she straight up her ceiling in bed that night.

She glanced at the book, still beautifull new and wrapped in the gift bag.

She had tried to read it, to concentrate on it, but only for a few seconds – until thoughts of him bombarded her brain and killed off any intentions of concentrating at all.

She then wondered why she was driven to think of him so much?

Was it because of his statue-esque good looks? Was it his highly-sprung attitude?

Or the curiosity about why he had offered to get her a book?

She decided that it was all of it – and the fact that she didn’t know who he was, his name.

It haunted her.

Before she retired for the night, she decided that she would go back to the store tomorrow … and look for him.

Because until she did … she would never stop thinking about him.She sincerely hoped that he would be there, she thought as her eyelids began to close.

Hope.
*

Her heart skipped a beat as she stood outside the bookstore at which she met him in yesterday. She silently prayed in her head that he would definitely be there again.

And maybe … just maybe they’ll be able to be friends.

That would definitely make her happy.

She entered, and she walked towards the same part of the bookstore.

She carefully looked around, aisle by aisle. But there were no signs of him.

She was on the verge of disappointment, but she stayed on, waiting – thinking that perhaps he was a bit late.She flipped through small and illustrated books, to help her pass the time as she waited.

Still, there wasn’t a hint of him at all.

Perhaps he was caught in a meeting? (Which would explain the suit and the mighty air around him). Or he was having lunch with his colleagues?

Or maybe … he just happened to pass by this store by chance, out of boredom and never intending to come by again?

The thought of it all depressed her. And the fact that she had stayed there for the entire lunch break of hers saddened her further when he was a no-show. She walked back to her office in defeat. And in hunger.

Where was he?

She wondered if she would be able to meet him ever again.

“Tomorrow.” She muttered to herself. “Again, tomorrow.
*

She had started reading the novel properly yesterday, and she was almost finished already.

She still prayed that she would meet him today, and she was desperate to because she unsuccessfully tried to get rid of him from her thoughts.

She tried to distract herself, but to no avail. It was all in vain.

The gift was a cruel attempt to remain in her head, she accused him. It was ridiculous, yet it was working perfectly well.

She returned to the bookstore today.

Still no sign of him.

She sighed sadly to herself and thought, “He is never coming back.”

She went home that day, finishing the book – also marking the end of her hope for him.
*

“Will you be joining us?” A colleague asked when it was lunch break.

“Yes. No.” She answered. “I would love to, but I just realized that I have to drop by the bookstore to get a new book.”

“Right.” They spoke slowly. “We’ll pack up something for you.”

“Thanks.”

She walked to the bookstore again, dreadfully remembering that man.

She realized it was just a silly trick of life as she entered with a deep sigh – unknowingly searched for him.

None.
She proceeded to look for a book.

“You must really love books, Miss.” An almost familiar voice said not far behind her.

She turned around.

He was smiling serenly, a hand in his pocket.

“I trust you have finished the book earlier.” He said, stepping towards her.

She was surprised and happy at the same time, and she smiled gleefully.

“Yeah, I have.”

“Hmm.” He looked thoughtfully at the shelf. “Fiction, eh?

Though, if you’re interested, I would recommend John Grisham’s A Time To Kill.”

“Oh, good?” She smiled, unable to take the grin off her lips.

“Brilliant.”

“Perhaps … I shall give it a try next time, after I finish this.” She shook another book in her hand.

He stared thoughtfully at it.

“You know … I was just wondering if I could buy you -”

“A book?” She cut him off expectantly.

“- Dinner, tonight?” He grinned slowly, turning to look at her.

-Kathlyn

The Best Of Friends .

2009-05-16T18:53:00.000-07:00

He and I were the best of friends,

We shared our lives, we shared our thoughts,

We were in inseparable,

Neither could do without the other.

Memories were created and memories were shared,

With him I felt I could dive into the ocean

And find the prettiest pearl

Or climb the highest mountain

And pick a favourite star.

He was the only one who didn’t mind when I snorted

Or if I had a cabbage stuck between my teeth

Or if I had picked a fight with the hairdresser

Or probably made the tailor angry.

That’s why I could hardly believe when they say that a boy and a girl

Cannot stay best friends forever.

I felt insulted at the revelation

Thinking, “Ha! I’ll prove it; we’ll be best friends to the end.”

But time floated

And I began to understand why.

Love came into my life,

As if it forgot to knock on the door

And crept quietly from the window.

That was when I started looking at him in a different light.

When he walked into the room, it was as if nobody else in the place mattered.

After a while of a mind debate on whether I was,

or whether I wasn’t

It was confirmed: I was head over heels in love with him.

After that debate, another one came along

On whether I should tell him or whether I should not tell him.

That was an easier game.

Being a little way too low on self-esteem, I picked the latter as the motion of my feelings.

I stayed happy.

Just having him by my side was enough to keep me smiling for the rest of the

years of my life.

Or so I thought.

She stepped into his life as if Queen Elizabeth has decided to go strolling down the streets

With no bodyguards – just her. And her crown. And her jewels.

That was how she was like.

The best thing that could ever happen to him, and the worst to me.

My heart was threatening to explode like a nuclear bomb,

Whenever she was in sight, and worse when I saw them talking,

Or when she did a teeny-weeny-little gesture like touching his arm,

I mentally slapped myself and reassured that he will never forget about me.

Those were his exact words.

“I will never, ever, ever forget you”

Those words were like a pillar, and I was desperately clinging to it.

But I was slipping day by day, whenever I saw them together.

It was painful at first.

But he would always come around and make me forget.

“When I win the basketball match, you’ll be the first one I’d call.” He told me.

I smiled weeks after that, waiting for his call.

He’ll always call. He will call. I know it.

I patiently waited, nothing could ruin this.

But he never called.

…I had to hear the news from her the next morning.
Oh.I wasn’t in his number one list anymore.

The next sharp turn I took was when I was playing football in school.

He was there. She was there.

They were the current inseparable duo.

I twisted my ankle, and lay spread-eagle in the middle of the field.

I didn’t want the coach to yell for first-aid.

I didn’t want my team mates scurrying after me,whispering their concern.

I didn’t want the crowd to grasp.

I wanted him to come to me. I wanted him to help me.

But he never came.

I was sick, I had fever.

I didn’t go to school.

I clutched my cell phone tightly,

Waiting.

Just waiting.

Waiting for him to call, waiting for him to visit.

Like he used to.

But he never visited.

When I flipped the book of the pages of my life,

The next chapter was a sad, sad story.

I was shocked at the fact that he could just pass me by, not saying a thing.

I was shocked that we drifted from being the best of friends to two people

Who just happened to be in the same spot on Earth,

Unrecognised, unintroduced, unnoticed.

Words couldn’t leave my mouth, my eyes wouldn’t blink

When I saw them walking around school, hand in hand, I just couldn’t think

The world changed as if it were mute.

The only thing I could hear was the faint sound of his laughter,

And the sound of my crumbling heart.

Week after week, month after month.Graduation.

And I was still lurking in the dark corner of what was left of my heart.

I thought that if I had given him my heart earlier,

I would rather he threw it away than give it to me.,

But still that couldn’t justify my ache.

A little ray of hope ignited at the back of my heart – telling me that he will remember me.

It was just a silly mistake humans make.

That was when I started to prove myself right,

And felt as if my heart started to glue its pieces back together,

When....

“Since it’s Graduation Night tonight, save a dance for me?

“ He grinned lopsidedly.

“Wh-what?” I said, with a smile, thinking that I didn’t hear him right.

“Best friends forever, right? Dance with me. Tonight’s last dance.”

I dressed up. I made myself up.

I put on those high heels Mum begged me to wear.And I waited at the door, smiling.

A friend picked me up, and we went.

Dance after dance…

Finally, the DJ announced it was the last song.

I waited for him to look for me.After all, it was better to have him by my side, than to not have him at all.

Tonight … would be a tribute to our friendship, I thought happily.

But he never came.……………………………………..

I didn’t cry.

I couldn’t cry.

I was still believing that he never forgot me.

He just forgot to remember me.
FIN.

-Kathlyn, ex St Cecelian .

Jai Ho-The Pussycat Dolls ft AR Rahman .

2009-05-15T03:55:00.000-07:00

Hey people !

yeah, the title . I love that song like soo much . (:

sorry, been away this few weeks . I just finish my mid-year examination which I would rather not talk about . It was damn hard man . It's like I'm failing all my subjects . Gawd ~! And it's such a coincidence that both my computers were spoilt at the same time so I couldn't go online for a while . So finally ! my computers are back and the exams are finally over . Whooooaaa . I'm so happy . I don't even wanna think about the results . The thought of it already makes me go crazy . I didn't have enough time to finish the English and BM paper , the two subjects which I love the most because of the asthma medicine I had taken which made my hand shake . I was in tears after the two exams . Thank God, without finishing the paper I still could get the highest for english in my class . But for BM, I'd rather not mention about it here . haihh . I've never got marks this low before in my whole life , NEVER ! Well , enough about the exams .

I wanna blog about Dr Enoch Fernando, a pianist from America . He came to my church to do a concert the other day . Gosh~! It was awesome . He is like on of the best pianist ever . I wish I could play like him , with one finger .

And not to mention that he is really funny . He kinda reminds me of Elvis Presley(is that how u spell his name. lol.) I manage to get 3 of his cd's . The best part is I got to take a picture with him . And he said to me "hey girl, whats your name ? You remind me of my niece ." ahahaha . And the one thing which I like and admire the most about him is that he goes around the world esp India to help the poor children . He has this programme where we can donate money to the 10 000 children in that programme . Gawd~! I just love him ! (: After looking at him , I wanna be an evangelist someday . You know like going around the world esp to the poor countries to preach the gospel . (cheyh , my dad will love that soo much) ahahha . Just like my dad , he does those kind of stuff in Indonesia . Send the kids to sunday school , buys bibles for the poor , build the curch . yeah . I wanna be like that someday . okay lah, I'll upload the 3 pictures . ahaha , 3 only bha .

Current Fav Malay songs .

2009-05-05T03:46:00.000-07:00

Tak Mungkin Kerna Sayang-Alyah

Setiba di persimpangan,

Langkah kita tak lagi sehaluan

Bermula di saat itu

Tidak senada irama dan lagu

Begitu hidup ini

Tiada yang abadi

Yang patah tumbuh

Yang hilang berganti

Kau telah jauh, jauh dariku

Tiada ruang di hati buatmu

Namun harusku akui

Ada ketika di minda kau menjelma kembali

Sekali segala ada

Ada rindu yang datang tiba-tiba

Tak mungkin kerana sayang

Cuma terganggu oleh perasaan

Begitu hidup ini

Tiada yang abadi

Yang patah tumbuh Yang hilang berganti

Kerja Gila-Amy Search

Malamku igau Gilakan kau

Siangku sasau ku gilakan kau

Aha… gilakan kau… beb
Hidupku payau Gilakan kau

Hariku kacau Gilakan kau

Aha… gilakan kau Aha… gilakan kau
Nak aku lepaskan… tak bisa

Nak aku lepaskan… tak berdaya
Makin aku meronta

Makin aku didera

Makin aku mencuba

Makin aku terseksa
Katakanlah oh sayang

Aku hanya berangan

Hentikanlah Kerja gila

Hentikanlah Kerja gila
HentikanlahKerja gila ini

You Say Aku-Cinta Laura

You say aku, seperti BarbieYou

look so pretty, menarik hati

You say aku, layaknya peri

Tebarkan cinta diatas bumi

Baby please.. please..Don’t play on me

Baby please.. please..Love me, love me

Beibeh beibeh my beibeh

You drive me crazy

Beibeh beibeh my beibeh

My heart is beating honey

Beibeh beibeh my beibeh

Oh please say love me

Beibeh beibeh my beibehbeibeh..mmuuuaaacchh

You say aku seperti puteri

Yang kau cari selama ini~{}~

Beibeh beibeh my beibeh

You drive me crazy

Beibeh beibeh my beibehbeibeh..mmuuuaaacchh

Halo.. Yes!!

and no , the songs ain't lame .

Out From Under-Britney Spears .

2009-04-22T02:25:00.000-07:00

This song is one of the best from Britney's new album .
Totally crazy in love with this song (:
The lyrics to the song is below .

Breathe you out, breathe you in
You keep coming back to tell me
You're the one who could have been

And my eyes, see it all so clear
It was long ago and far away, but it never disappears
I try to put it in the past, hold on to myself
And don't look back

I don't wanna dream about, all the things that never were
And maybe I can live without, when I'm out from under
I don't wanna feel the pain, what good would it do me now?
I'll get it all figured out, when I'm out from under
(From under, from under, from under)

So let me go, just let me fly away
Let me feel the space between us, growin' deeper
And much darker everyday

Watch me now, and I'll be someone new
My heart will be unbroken, it will open up
For everyone but you
Even when I cross the line, it's like a lie I've told a thousand times

I don't wanna dream about, all the things that never were
Maybe I can live without, when I'm out from under
I don't wanna feel the pain, what good would it do me now?
I'll get it all figured out, when I'm out from under
(From under, from under, from under, from under)

A part of me still believes when you, say you're gonna stick around
A part of me still believes we can, find a way to work it out
But I know that we tried everything we could try so let's just, say goodbye
Forever...

I don't wanna dream about, all the things that never were
And maybe I can live without, when I'm out from under
And I don't wanna feel the pain, what good would it do me now?
I'll get it all figured out, when I'm out from under

I don't wanna dream about, all the things that never were
And maybe I can live without, when I'm out from under
And I don't wanna feel the pain, what good would it do me now?
I'll get it all figured out, when I'm out from under
(From under, from under, from under, from under)

2009-04-21T01:29:00.001-07:00

FUCKTARD .

2009-04-21T00:45:00.000-07:00

F.U.C.K ! I don't usually use this word but I'm really pissed right now .
How could he raise his voice at me ?!!! What are you ?
A stuck-up bastard ?
Damn it ! If you don't want to help, you shouldn't have joined my group in the first place .
I really hate this kind of group members . USELESS ! Arrggghhh !
I really felt like screaming back at him but I didn't want to cause a drama or get into a big hu-ha fight .
How about Emylia ? She dosen't even have internet, but she still makes an effort to help out . See Too also helps .
Dude ! you are a guy , aren't you supposed to be ashamed ?
Leaving all the girls to do the work .
And when I asked you, you shouted at me "We are not rushing time also, exam time I still can do lah....bla bla bla bla*crap*"
I really wanted to ask Mdm Leong to replace him with Sharmaine .
Even Emylia and See To agrees . But nevermind .
I have never liked this guy since form 2 . Only acknowledging people and being good to people when he wants something .
Always asking for help, "uiii, Melissa help me ehh" .
That's all . And the next minute, he wont even remember to say thank you .
What kind of friend do you call that ? ugh ~!
Learn to respect people's feelings and learn to appreciate them .
I am just so sick of your attitude .
It's not like I want to bring up old stories but dude !
I helped you do your whole ULBS and you got the highest in the class and you didn't even say thank you .
When you need answers, I give you coz I feel pity for you .
But went I need answers, you wont even look at me .
You suck balls ! You and your friend, Tissue are just the same .
Only come to me for help or when you need something, right ?!
Tissue, if you don't love me, fine !
It's your choice, I can't talk about it .
But aren't you ashmed of asking me for help ?
It's not like I mind but it's becoming to often .
Even my friends say so .
And you take advantage of the fact that I love you beyond the reason why and it's just ain't right . You know I wont say no to you, so you keep asking me to help you .
I helped you with you ULBS . And not only you "forgot" to say thank you but you even lost the paper !!!
And with your muka-tak-tahu-malu you came and asked me to do it again for you .
I was like wth =.= And I can't believe I actually did it again for you .
Wth was I thinking ? It's too bad I can't hate you .
Anyway, this is better than you avoiding me . :(
Anyway, about that other stuck-up bastard .
Thank God he was still wiling to help, if not....
I don't know why I forgive people so easily and help people eventhough they're bad to me .
Fatin said "Baik Tidak Bertempat" . ahaha .
Anyway, past is past .

I hope I'm not exaggerating .
He-Who-Could-Not-Be-Named , you know who you are .
If you are reading this, I'm sorry .
I'm just letting go ~ No hard feelings, aite ? (:

2009-04-20T00:01:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Rose Syakila Farhain . =)

One of my favs .

Random .

2009-04-19T23:27:00.000-07:00

Not really sure about what to blog about today . Not much happend today . Just an ordinary day . But I still feel like blogging (kebaruan) ahh, so what ? rite . All I know is I'm really exhausted . Today as usual went to school . After 5 mins in class , I realise that Tissue wont be coming . Because he usually arrives 5 mins after me(cheyh, I know bha . lol) . I was like so frustrated . sigh* . Anyway, I was rushing to do my karangan ( Lunturnya Semangat Kejiranan) coz I didn't want to tunggu bas . It means stand outside the class . That's how the teacher describes it . lol . But anyway, thank God I had already jotted down the isi's and all . So I only had to copy it back to my buku karangan and arrange the sentences . And I managed to finish it with the help of Deepika and Ain . =) Well, I had always loved BM . So doing karangan's is fun . ehehe (:

Last Outing With Khalidah .

2009-04-19T04:15:00.000-07:00

Em, if I'm not mistaken it was last last week . We, my friends and I went out for the last time with Khal . She's moving to kl . Her mum got promoted (uisehh ;P) . Till now, I still can't believe she's no more in Sandakan . We are like bffs . We knew each other since primary one . Started to be in the same class since primary two . Used to follow her car home everyday when we were in primary three . Those were days when we didnt care about anything . Those shit we care so much about now---size, Guys, and the list goes on . We were so closed that we fought alot . ahaha . Amanda and her used to bully me alot till I cried =.= . Owh Gawd ! I miss her so much already .

So yeah, about the outing . There were alot of us . Khal, Mai, Me, Dy, Farah, Sar, Mag, Yon, Amanda, Zett, Jess, Jane plus some of her camping friends which I didn't know . There was one hawt guy . lol . His name was J.F . (bukan nama sebenar) lol . ahh, whatever about him . We enjoyed alot . Went to town had drinks, jalan-jalan, then to Mixfruit and of coz, as usual KBOX . I really love the song we sang-Lagu Untukmu by Meet Uncle Hussein .

Okay people, I wanna blog more but I have to go to the doctor coz I have some serious allergies . Dr Eng, Help Me !!! =) plus I got loads of homework . from accounts-english(1000 words essay)-BM karangan . And I gtg before my mum blows her top . aargghh !

And yeah, I have to wake at 4.40 a.m. tomorrow. swt =.= bus comes at 5.30 a.m. wth .

I'll upload some pictures . Let 'em speak on behalf of me =)

see ya , tc ! xoxo .

They should have airconds in kbox . It was like so damn hot .

Dy, Farah, Me, Khal .

Me, Amanda, Khal .

All Of Us .

Khal, Me, Amanda . Childhood Besties, forever . =)

-Sorry about the pictures . I have no idea why it looks like that . cacat =.=

Obama Has A Dog !

2009-04-19T04:07:00.000-07:00

It's a dog's life: New Pet Bo Gives Barack Obama The Runaround On White House Lawn .

If Barack Obama thought running for President was hard, he may have taken on an even tougher challenge.
Just hours after the arrival of new dog Bo, the most powerful man in the world seemed in danger of being pulled off his feet by his new puppy.
The Portuguese water dog put his owners through their paces on the White House lawn - leaving them struggling to keep up.

In an unguarded moment the President runs along a corridor in the White House followed by Bo .

Barrack Obama

2009-04-19T04:01:00.000-07:00

Yeah, that's Obama and I admire him . =)

Barack Hussein Obama II was born on August 4, 1961) is the 44th and current President of the United States . He is the first African American to hold the office. Obama was the junior United States Senator from Illinois from January 2005 until November 2008, when he resigned following his election to the presidency .
Obama is a graduate of Columbia University and Harvard Law School, where he was the first African American president of the Harvard Law Review . He was a community organizer in Chicago before earning his law degree . He worked as a civil rights attorney in Chicago and also taught constitutional law at the University of Chicago Law School from 1992 to 2004 .
Obama served three terms in the Illinois Senate from 1997 to 2004. Following an unsuccessful bid for a seat in the U.S. House of Representatives in 2000, Obama ran for United States Senate in 2004. His victory from a crowded field in the March 2004 Democratic primary raised his visibility, and his prime-time televised keynote address at the Democratic National Convention in July 2004 made him a rising star nationally in the Democratic Party . He was elected to the U.S. Senate in November 2004 by the largest margin in Illinois history .
He began his run for the presidency in February 2007 . After a close campaign in the 2008 Democratic Party presidential primaries against Hillary Rodham Clinton, he won his party's nomination, becoming the first major party African American candidate for president . In the 2008 general election, he defeated Republican candidate John McCain and was inaugurated as president on January 20, 2009 .

Hey People ! (:

2009-04-18T23:47:00.000-07:00

Hey people. It's my first time blogging. I actually thought of starting a blog a long time ago but I wasn't sure if I could do it coz I'm not good at writting. But since Deepika has been persuading me to blog for a long time, so I thought ah, okay lah. Try it out. So I wont blame you guys if you find my blog boring. hahaha. I don't really know what to post about. I wanna inspirit people. I want my blog to be inspiring like Marilynn's one :). I don't want my blog to be about bragging, about bitches, branded stuff and all that crap. =.=

Can't wait to go to school tomorrow. Eventhough I haven't finished my homework.

esp account, english (1000 words essay), and bm karangan. =.=

I can't wait to see him. =)

So that's all for now people.

xoxo,

you know you love me.